stay low babe. stay low. that's what you always do

People do make mistakes. Another time is not mistakes, it is called choice. Learn from mistakes.

Yep. I do too. The mistake that I have done is trying to make a name out of myself so that I could stand out more. But in the end, it is in the wrong way. I have not stand out more like others, excel in studies etc. Instead, I stand out to be a common topic among others. And that's is totally no good at all. To be discuss about.

I once had made friend with. The friend told me a lot about bullying. At first I am hard to believe there is such people nowadays especially this school. But now I realise yeah. Why not? Its everywhere. Out in the street, which countries, which area, province. Countless. Once you are out of the norm, bully.

Each semester change, people change, class change. When you have no one else to turn to, you turn to someone new. And that someone new is a stranger, to be friends, you have to trust them. Perhaps you trust too much ended up backstabbing, so now you need to be caution. Not to give all out, and when you do that you are deem too fake.

WHHHHHHAT?

Yep. Life. Third world problems.

And another mistake I did is I kinda laugh too much in serious conversation or situation. I tried to laugh or smile to lighten up the mood. But it doesn't seem to effect. All I get was 'stop playing a fool', 'don't joke around', 'do you think this is a joke?' when I am not. Well, so next time when I get in this situation , I have to NOT smile, or smirk or whatever face expressions..  I have to give a straight face with emotionless. And that give the impression of arrogant  or proud, well each have to see situation.

THEN HOWWWWWWW?

Act lorh. Learn expressioning from tv. And learn. This is skill. Not many people is as smooth as you.

Last thing is that when you get close to someone with no ill intentions, mainly just to be friends in school, but that is not THAT people thinking about. Some people think like WOAHHHHH not so simple arh.

This is see people one. Some people are very complex and complicated.

And that's why . STAY AWAY.

Why do I often get to know these people? Because this is society like. No one is same or perfect or fits your criteria or suits you anyway.

I believe there are people who are my beneficiary. I needed in life to guide me.

Rage mode

Hehe. Just need a space to rage on. And i have no where to write on. Twitter is too short, 140 characters is just not enough.

And what i want to rage about is why cant i just go anywhere. I know you guys concern about my safety and well being. But im grown up now. If you guys keep saying im immature and such, i will just never grow and keep on thinking that oh ya, i am that immature so why not i keep doing this. Instead of being mature, i dont follow my age.

And another i mention is that i cant stay overnight at other places than home. Stop putting me at home. What else can i do at home? I mean, people like my age needs to be expose and see the world. If not wait until when? Wait until i grad? That time i will be busy either finding jobs or uni. No friends are in same free time as me anymore. All gone to different ways or route. Wait until uni? Uni is hectic. Everyone knows that uni life is no life life. Lose life in campus. Most of them.

Well by all means. Cancel is cancel liao. Prepare to be a crouch potato me.

Yay. Rage finish le. Waiting for hair to dry.
And one more thing. I cant read books anymore. Unless its content has comics or story excites me. Or i just got bored. Yarr i know books has knowledge blah.

School opens tomorrow. Havent touch lappy for almost 2 weeks. Feel of lost touch.